It’s so weird how one year you can be totally fine with things and then the next- it’s just not working out. Case and point: For the last year and a half I have worked a full time “regular” job AND taught 15 credits at 2 different colleges. That equals 2 full-time jobs.
Last year I was definitely OK with it and I saw the income as a plus, in more ways than one. This time around, I’m not so sure. Maybe I’m getting older and need more “me” time or maybe I am finally realizing what I want. Who knows? One thing I do know is this: I use to NEVER waver on my decisions. If a job wasn’t for me, I left.
Maybe it’s the notion that the economy is crap and having a job AND benefits is something I should be thankful for, but I honestly am burnt out! It has taken me a long time to be able to admit that but it’s true. I made a huge decision to work part time at the start of 2010 and I am already worried about that decision.
I am a natural worrier. Anyone who knows me can vouch for my obsessive worrying, so these next few months will be wild. I guess it doesn’t help that I have ADHD and NEED to be busy at all times or I go berserk, but this is the one time I have wanted to be bored in my life. I’ll tell you why in a minute.
T/Th I arrive at work at 6:30am and leave at 7pm. I takes almost an hour commute each way. That is what, 13 hours working? Whoa Nelly. M/W/F are just 6:30am to 5pm. Not too bad but if you are into math, which I am not, you can quickly see that my coworkers and fellows commuters should equate to family by now!
Here is what it all comes down to: I have been with my partner for 4 years. I am happier than I have ever been in my life. I finally feel like I can take care of myself and do a good job at it, but I want more. Not more money. Well, yes, more money. But not at the expense of 13 hour days.
So, my plan is to make my life outside of work my focus during 2010. We’ll see how I adjust but adjustment is key in navigating the “Journey to Thirty”!